An Open Letter to One Direction

An Open Letter to One Direction

I just want to start with a simple thank you. The last 5 years have been amazing, you have changed my life without knowing it. You have been here through the good and the bad. So once again I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

You have done so much for me without even knowing it. From connecting me with the best friends I could have ever imagined to just being that shoulder to cry on. The music you have created over the last 5 albums have saved me more than you will ever know.

You have created this family that I never knew I would be able to have. You brought millions of us together while just being yourself and that is all I could ever ask for.

I met my best friend on Twitter because of you, and to this day I don’t know how I would survive days without her, so thank you.

I have been able to be myself more because of you and this family that has been created, I was always scared to do that because I didn’t want to be judged as that 22 year old who listens to One Direction, or that person who would fly to another state for 1 day just to see you live. But with the support of this family that has been created by you I don’t feel the pressure to be something I’m not and that is probably the best feeling in the world.

I feel like I am rambling like crazy because there is so much I want to say to you and I just don’t know how to put some of these emotions into words. It’s hard when you have that one group that has changed your life forever but they will never really understand that at all.

I know I talk about this family that was created because of you a lot. That is what I see most of us as. We are more than just fans of some band, we have come together to do amazing things, we are a family. Of course there are some crazies, but every family has that crazy uncle, that we have to put up with.

I don’t even know where this is going anymore, so I’ll leave this here, for you to read.

I hope you have a good week and please come back soon. I miss you more than you will ever know.



time for a rant

time for a rant

body shaming.

Why is that even a thing? Who do people think it is okay to say someone is “too skinny” or “too fat”?

Are people really that insecure about themselves that they have to pick on others? You have NO idea how what you say about a person will effect them. You don’t know what that person is going through mentally. They could be fighting something internally about the way they look.

They could be going through anything and when someone says “he/she is not perfect” it could hurt them a lot more than people realize.

I personally have had the mindset that I do not look like the media says I should, I have battled those thoughts before. I still to this day, will sometimes think that no one will ever love me because I don’t look like the girls in the magazines. but you know what, I have taken the healthy approach to this things, instead of starving myself or purging, I am eating healthier, going to the gym 4 days a week, drinking a ton of water, and getting enough sleep.

I do struggle with “bad thoughts” sometimes, so when I see others being body shamed it hits close to home. I don’t think I will ever understand why people think it is okay to talk so much shit about a person’s looks. It is wrong on so many levels and we even have these so called “role models” who think it is okay to talk shit about other celebrities on Twitter or some even in interviews and it is just wrong.

I think this is enough rant for today.

I just needed to get that off of my chest because it has been weighing on me for a few days now.

Do you agree, disagree, want to add something? Well then let me know in the comments below.

I hope you have an amazing week.


Mental Health

Mental Health

I am sitting at my desk, crying. real tears.

Today was not a good day. I haven’t had an attack in a few months, I thought I was better. Little did I know I was no where near better.

It came out of no where. I was sitting in class about to take a really important test, when all of a sudden I couldn’t breath. I was terrified.

It got worse as everyone stared at me while I was hyperventilating and no one even asked if I was okay, they just went about their business. Making me feel like I was completely alone and helpless.

I never thought I would have an attack like this in class, but they come out of no where and it is the worse thing ever. I don’t even know what caused this one. All I know is that it scares the absolute shit out of me and I had to sit there, in a class of 160 other students and take a test. I couldn’t leave or I would not be able to take my test and I think that made it worse.

It has just been a bad day. It’s 8:10pm. I should be studying for my Philosophy midterm that I have tomorrow but I can’t stop crying. I am terrified. Anxiety is the worse thing I have ever had. I just want it to go away. Someone please make it go away.

I don’t know if i will ever post this. I just needed to get this out of my system. I have anxiety and have had it for as long as I can remember. It is something I deal with every single day. I am able to fake it a lot when it comes to being happy. I honestly don’t know the last time I was truly happy.

Which scares me more than anything.

I have to physically make myself get out of bed every single morning, and it’s not because I’m “lazy”. I am scared of what might happen during the day that could trigger a panic attack. I don’t leave my house on the weekends really at all. I don’t like to make plans to go out with friends, I don’t even have that many friends to start with and the ones that I do have live no where near me.

I try not to let my anxiety rule my life but it is getting harder every single day. Some days I just think I should give up.

We aren’t twelve year old little girls.

We aren’t twelve year old little girls.

If you were to ask the general public how old they think the average age of a One Direction fan a majority would say 12. Why is this? I think it is because One Direction is still seen by many people as just a stupid little boy band, when in fact they are so much more than that.

I did a survey on twitter and asked people their age. 106 people voted in that survey. Out of the 106 people, 85% of them said they were over the age of 18. That does not surprise me at all. Out of those over the age of 18, 58% said they were between the ages of 18-26.

So why can others not except the fact that we are not 12 year old little girls?

WE GREW  UP WITH THE BOYS. I am now 22 years old, I  have had the best time ever growing up with them.

I mean let’s be real here, have you listened to some of their lyrics lately?

Let’s start with Better Than Words, during Niall’s solo he says, “Best I ever had, hips don’t lie, you make me wanna shhhh one more night.” HELLO, what do you think that means? I wouldn’t let a 12 year old listen to that…

Moving on… NO CONTROL.. “Waking up beside you I’m a loaded gun”Interpret as you will but it doesn’t leave much to the imagination now does it?

Lastly, Temporary Fix… This is probably one of my favourite songs on Made in the A.M. “We can roll in the darkness, let me touch you where your heart is.” all while Harry is moaning Yeah in the background.. Even Niall has said that this song is about a one night stand after meeting in a bar. I see you Niall. 😉

Their songs have slowly gotten dirtier and dirtier, and I love it. They are growing up and writing about what they are doing with their life, not just some bubble gum pop stuff.

With all of that being said, I am so tired of people believing that this fandom is nothing but little kids. Over half of us are grown adults and should not be treated like crap for liking One Direction

Just keep in mind we aren’t 12 year old little girls.

*rant over*